Growing up in an unhealthy environment, with constant criticism, lack of affection and recognition. Growing up I told myself that I would never be like my mother but it was impossible. I look and act like my mother, continuing her negative patterns that I am trying not to train. I need to have a sense of understanding of myself and to be able to build a healthy relationship with my children. With my older children I think I did a mediocre job, I was young and I only knew what I was exposed to through my primary caregiver who was my mother. My mother lacks the maternal love caused by her environment from an early age. Based on self-reflection, my parenting skills have been shaped through my life experience of lacking supportive communication in expressing emotions. To this day I am trying to fix my relationship with my older children because our communication is mixed with feelings of frustration, anger and feelings of distance and isolation. I am trying to change my approach when communicating with my younger children by recognizing my behavior when I am frustrated, angry and upset. My daughters can point out when I'm angry and make a joke and my hunger is satisfied. I learned