Love is powerful, it can overcome almost anything. We all want it, but no one hurts us. We push away the people we supposedly love just because we are afraid. Fear of getting hurt. Until we go through life and find that guy we fall deeply in love with. But then we're still bad, we still have the instinct not to let them in at all. We would like to do it but it's difficult, we keep pushing back, we don't intend to just do it. Most of this is caused by the fact that we have been hurt by someone before and the pain of a broken heart is unbearable. I came from a good home, my parents were still together and lived in a good neighborhood. Then I met Casey. I loved him and my parents couldn't get enough of him. It was amazing, we dated all through high school, then college came along and we couldn't have been stronger. But something happened and it unleashed something horrible. Then suddenly I found myself in a very tough, abusive relationship, emotionally and physically. It all started one day when he saw me talking to one of my best friends. I wasn't doing anything wrong. I was actually going to take her one year old because she had work and needed someone to take care of her baby. But when I told Casey he didn't believe me. He went crazy with jealousy and exploded. I was scared and that day was the beginning of the abuse. The next day I packed up all of my and Carson's and my baby's things and tried to leave, but he wouldn't let me. From there on everything went rapidly downhill. I was terrified of waking up every morning just because I knew that every day I would be hurt even more. Now I don't even say he's mine anymore, my love for him is gone. But the strange thing about the abuse is that he apologized and brought me flowers and gifts after hitting me. At first I forgave him, because... middle of paper... listen to me. It was to keep him safe. Casey was a jealous person and I knew he would hurt Luke. I heard him scream my name. This went on and on. Then I started hearing Casey threatening my guests, then there was screaming and gunshots. I couldn't let him hurt my friends and family. At this point I had no idea where Carson was, the last time I saw him he was getting food with my mother. Casey wouldn't hurt anyone if I got out. All he wanted was me. And that's what I was going to give him. If you're reading this Luke, I'm probably dead, he finally found me and did what he always said he would do. Now you know everything. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. But I really loved you, Luke, with all my heart. I need you to do something for me, take care of Carson. I'm sorry, you're already an amazing father to him. You are his father. I love you both. Until we meet again.
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